forget about everything and run away

i should warn you that is will probably be a vague blog with little direction because i feel the need to blog, but i'm left without a real topic.

i love to laugh.
i really do. and i laugh too loud. and don't realize it until a second later when i hear it echo...haha but like some things are so funny to me that i can think about them minutes, hours, days later and they're still funny. i love it. it makes life better.

but (in some version besides the NIV) proverbs 14:13 says "laughter can conceal a heavy heart. but when laughter ends, the hurt remains."
NIV says "even in laughter the heart may ache, and joy may end in grief."

they're both good.
i don't work well with situations that are heavy and deep. in a way, i do because i'll talk to you about most serious things, but there is a limit. there's a point where i start to get uncomfortable and my heart hurts and i'd rather drop it. and sometimes if i can laugh through that, it helps. laughter is something really fantastic. for some reason it's hard for me to picture God as laughing and joyful, but i'm fully aware that laughter is a beautiful gift from Him.
but sometimes that's all people know how to do. it makes me sad to see people who deal with every single serious situation in their life by laughing it off. who just will not let themselves be vulnerable enough to be sad about something. people who never cry, not because that's just their personality, but because they don't understand that it's okay. people who know the best that when the laughter ends, the hurt remains.
laughter can conceal a heavy heart.
laughter is beautiful, but maybe it's not always the answer.