August 14, 2009

bleh. just go here if you even read this anymore:

i can never make up my mind.

July 29, 2009

one month

last week i decided to go one month without wearing makeup or straightening my hair.

i’m not one of those girls who can’t leave the house without putting makeup on, so it’s not like that. i also don’t straighten my hair every single day. however, i do feel much prettier when i’m wearing makeup or when i have straight hair, even if it’s pulled back. so i was looking at myself in the mirrors in the fitting room at work (like i usually do) and i realized that i want to go an extended period of time without doing either of those things, and i want to allow God to use that time to reveal to me that i am beautiful without those specific artificial helpers. i believe God put a lot of hard work into creating me and He made me to be beautiful, inside and out. i want to believe that and live like it. i’m hoping in the next month, God will truly open my eyes and allow me to see myself as His beautiful daughter; one who was created in Love and with a wonderful plan for my life.

that’s the plan, man.

April 22, 2009


[a little late for Easter, but still good]
I found this little gem when I was doing research for a paper the other day.

God's resurrection of Jesus vindicates his scandalous death as truly messianic.

I read it and smiled because it's so simple and so true. Jesus died a painful and humiliating death that was lost on many. Almost everyone couldn't see the point in such a depressing moment. So many people lost all of their hope along with His death. It was scandalous and almost embarrassing in a way; the supposed Savior of the world, hanging on a tree. But look what God did with it. His resurrection vindicated His death. Without the resurrection, Jesus' death meant nothing; it would have been an extremely negative event. He would have died, and that would have been the end. So much for the Savior. But because of God's act of resurrection, His death truly means something. He is the Messiah. He is risen.

March 11, 2009


"If you're reading more blogs than you are Scripture you have some priority issues."

dang. I suck.
I'm so bad about prioritizing. I always have good intentions about reading Scripture, but you know what they say about good intentions...
I always want to read my bible, but then I end up with no time or no energy, which really both just equal no excuse. but God's been using Phillip's walk through Scripture to speak to me in the last couple of days. Just two small blog posts about what he's been reading have encouraged me to realize that I'm not reading enough. Basically if someone spent a day with me, they would see that I love my computer and my blogs way more than I love my bible, and obviously that's not ok.
Time for change.

February 25, 2009

give intimacy

[there will be a picture later. i figured i'd tell you that first because i know you're terribly worried that my wonderful photography skills would not be displayed here today...calm down]

My favorite line from this past week's sermon at church was

the greatest gift you can give the world is your intimacy with God

right? I think that's what it was, anyway.
That really spoke to me because it turns everything around. We so often spend time trying to DO things to make the world see that we love Jesus so that they in turn will love Him, too. I try and make myself seem like I'm always in love with Him and His decisions for my life instead of actually striving to BE in love with Him all the time. I try and show the world something; it's an outward expression. But what the world REALLY needs is for me to be genuine. If I want to speak to the people I come in contact with about God's love for me and my love for Him in return, I first need to really be close to Him and find intimacy with Him. After I establish that incredibly amazing relationship with Him, the world will HAVE to notice. Rather than working really hard to show the world something that may not be true, I simply have to be true to Christ and the world will see. There is far less pressure for me to be a certain type of person this way.
So I am about to embark on a small journey that I hope will increase my intimacy with the Lord and change me from the inside out. Rob and I are doing a little fast, so to speak. We're going without something in our relationship that should change us, both individually and together. We're making a sacrifice together that could really change us and draw us closer to God. And my favorite part about this is that it will be a struggle that I don't have to face alone because I have a brilliant man of God next to me and nothing to lose. There is only a deep, new intimacy with God to gain.

February 23, 2009

[days 18 & 19]

1. Rob's new favorite picture of us lol
2. Lunch today.

February 21, 2009

[day 17]

Rob's and my favorite comic books.