August 14, 2009

bleh. just go here if you even read this anymore:

i can never make up my mind.

July 29, 2009

one month

last week i decided to go one month without wearing makeup or straightening my hair.

i’m not one of those girls who can’t leave the house without putting makeup on, so it’s not like that. i also don’t straighten my hair every single day. however, i do feel much prettier when i’m wearing makeup or when i have straight hair, even if it’s pulled back. so i was looking at myself in the mirrors in the fitting room at work (like i usually do) and i realized that i want to go an extended period of time without doing either of those things, and i want to allow God to use that time to reveal to me that i am beautiful without those specific artificial helpers. i believe God put a lot of hard work into creating me and He made me to be beautiful, inside and out. i want to believe that and live like it. i’m hoping in the next month, God will truly open my eyes and allow me to see myself as His beautiful daughter; one who was created in Love and with a wonderful plan for my life.

that’s the plan, man.

April 22, 2009


[a little late for Easter, but still good]
I found this little gem when I was doing research for a paper the other day.

God's resurrection of Jesus vindicates his scandalous death as truly messianic.

I read it and smiled because it's so simple and so true. Jesus died a painful and humiliating death that was lost on many. Almost everyone couldn't see the point in such a depressing moment. So many people lost all of their hope along with His death. It was scandalous and almost embarrassing in a way; the supposed Savior of the world, hanging on a tree. But look what God did with it. His resurrection vindicated His death. Without the resurrection, Jesus' death meant nothing; it would have been an extremely negative event. He would have died, and that would have been the end. So much for the Savior. But because of God's act of resurrection, His death truly means something. He is the Messiah. He is risen.

March 11, 2009


"If you're reading more blogs than you are Scripture you have some priority issues."

dang. I suck.
I'm so bad about prioritizing. I always have good intentions about reading Scripture, but you know what they say about good intentions...
I always want to read my bible, but then I end up with no time or no energy, which really both just equal no excuse. but God's been using Phillip's walk through Scripture to speak to me in the last couple of days. Just two small blog posts about what he's been reading have encouraged me to realize that I'm not reading enough. Basically if someone spent a day with me, they would see that I love my computer and my blogs way more than I love my bible, and obviously that's not ok.
Time for change.

February 25, 2009

give intimacy

[there will be a picture later. i figured i'd tell you that first because i know you're terribly worried that my wonderful photography skills would not be displayed here today...calm down]

My favorite line from this past week's sermon at church was

the greatest gift you can give the world is your intimacy with God

right? I think that's what it was, anyway.
That really spoke to me because it turns everything around. We so often spend time trying to DO things to make the world see that we love Jesus so that they in turn will love Him, too. I try and make myself seem like I'm always in love with Him and His decisions for my life instead of actually striving to BE in love with Him all the time. I try and show the world something; it's an outward expression. But what the world REALLY needs is for me to be genuine. If I want to speak to the people I come in contact with about God's love for me and my love for Him in return, I first need to really be close to Him and find intimacy with Him. After I establish that incredibly amazing relationship with Him, the world will HAVE to notice. Rather than working really hard to show the world something that may not be true, I simply have to be true to Christ and the world will see. There is far less pressure for me to be a certain type of person this way.
So I am about to embark on a small journey that I hope will increase my intimacy with the Lord and change me from the inside out. Rob and I are doing a little fast, so to speak. We're going without something in our relationship that should change us, both individually and together. We're making a sacrifice together that could really change us and draw us closer to God. And my favorite part about this is that it will be a struggle that I don't have to face alone because I have a brilliant man of God next to me and nothing to lose. There is only a deep, new intimacy with God to gain.

February 23, 2009

[days 18 & 19]

1. Rob's new favorite picture of us lol
2. Lunch today.

February 21, 2009

[day 17]

Rob's and my favorite comic books.

February 20, 2009

[day 16]

the reason why kilgore calls me a 12 year old boy

February 19, 2009

end result [day 15]

ok here it is. and you should go vote.
i'm using every outlet i can because the prize is soooo good. so you should go vote.
we're number 4.
thanks :)

February 18, 2009

[day 14 take 2]

my outfit for work today. take a good look; i rarely wear dresses. we'll see how long it takes for it to come back out of my closet again

[day 14]

mmmm chocolate doughnut.

February 16, 2009

[day 11 & 12]

1. new ring(s) i got from work
2. my best friends when i'm cold.

February 14, 2009

[day 10]

Happy Valentine's Day!

February 13, 2009

[day 9]

1. random Jones soda bottle top
2. rob's motorcycle :) the death trap.

February 12, 2009

[day 8]

some pictures from today's attempt at getting a cute picture together. these are test shots in a way haha. the actual one turned out better.

February 11, 2009

[day 7] take two

1. The neighborhood cat, Baby. She likes to try and sneak in the house sometimes and then scratch on the door when we don't let her in. Cute.
2. Also cute :)

[day 6 & 7]

1. B Money has chucks. Yes, I said B Money.
2. Our mantle, which is currently flooded with flowers. If this is what it's like before valentine's day, I can't even imagine what the house will sprout afterward. I don't know how those boys can afford the purchase of entire gardens, but more power to them.

February 9, 2009

[day 5]

Two pictures in hopes of making up for missing Day 3.

1. The pearls I wore yesterday. The only hint of color in my all-black outfit.
2. My dying roses. Heading to the garbage can soon.

[day 4]

Ok, I know I'm already slacking on the photo days because I missed day 3, but in my defense I worked from 10-3:30 and went straight to Providence for our amazing night of praise and worship in celebration of Elevation's 3rd Year Anniversary!!! It was amazing and even came complete with a kick-a** guitar solo, compliments of Pastor Furtick. If you missed it, that's sad.

Anyways, here are 2 pictures from yesterday.
The first one, on the left, is courtesy of Cheyenne Schultz ( check it out. she's awesome, i promise). I love this picture, and not just because I love all of Cheyenne's pictures. Yesterday was so much fun, just like every other Sunday morning. Burn for You is one of my favorite songs, and I remember how I felt in this moment yesterday, so I love it.

The second picture is courtesy This is what I looked like last night at midnight when I finally crawled up to my room to get ready for bed. (Just to tell you how tired I was, I went to bed at 12-ish and at the moment I've only been awake for about an hour and 15 minutes. and it's 3pm). Yesterday I didn't stop moving from 5am to about 8pm. 4 services at Providence and then 5 hours of work. As much as I worried about how all that was going to kill me yesterday, the day turned out pretty awesome. Work wasn't too bad, and I love the girls I work with. The icing on the cake was that my favorite person in the world came to see me and watched Madagascar 2 by himself while I fell asleep on the couch haha.

There you go for Day 4. We'll see what I get for Day 5 today.

P.S. you're just lucky I didn't post a picture of the disgusting blister on my heel.
You're welcome :]

February 6, 2009

[day 2]

I cleaned my room today...somewhat.
Trust me, it looks better than it did before.
Notice the flowers that someone awesome got me :)

February 5, 2009

Copycat [day 1]

I don't have very many original ideas. But then again, I don't feel like anyone has a lot. We all just steal from other people, so I don't feel so bad.
Anyways, I'm going to copy my old friend, Stephanie, in an endeavor to take more pictures. I have a camera that I consider ballin' (yeah) and I rarely use it. So this is partly to encourage myself to take more pictures and partly to encourage myself to put something on this blog once in a while. So here we go. Feel free to verbally kick my butt if I slack.
I'll be doing this for at least 30 days. We'll see after that.

So this is rocket. After the McCarts left, I had this strange 4-person-family-sized gap in my life. And this small memento was something little I got just remind myself of how much they did for us while they were here for their short stay. It was the most tangible memory I could find and it only cost like $2 at the Disney store haha.