October 9, 2007

You've rescued us from death and set us free

sometimes i feel like i come off as a really negative person.

it's easy to complain. it's easy to point out the things in your life that are difficult or awkward or unfair, etc. it's easy to find things that are missing in your life.
sometimes i feel like i spend a lot of time talking about the "bad" things in my life.
2 issues here:

how do i define what is "bad" about my life?
why is it so easy to focus on just those things?

because lately i've found that some of the people or things or actions or conversations or events that i've considered detrimental to my attitude and outlook throughout my life have turned out to be some of the biggest blessings. some people that have said hateful things that brought me down proved to me that God should be my focus, not my friendships or relationships. some times that i've felt worthless have shown me simply that my worth cannot and should not be found on earth, but in God. i've had conversations with people in which i feel like i failed to get a single point across only to realize later that things came out perfectly clear.
things that i've considered "bad" in the past are easily turned around and made "good." God makes things new and good, and even if they were bad at the time, He turns life around.

a lot of times, i'll spend several minutes complaining about something. anything. just to complain. i have a friend who is constantly aware of the good things God has put into her life because she experiences loss on a daily basis. she inspires me. she is strong because she understands that no matter how much we have to complain about, we have it so easy. we have food, money, an education, love, a beautiful Savior.
lately i've been realizing that i have NOTHING to complain about.
my life is full of blessings. my life is FULL, completely full of love. i have enough love today to last me a lifetime. but thankfully, i get more tomorrow. :]

i could not ask for anything more than what i have.
i can't stand negative people. i mean, everyone should get to be negative at some point in their life. but i know several people who could fill a book with negative thoughts. i don't enjoy that. i don't want to do that. i don't want to be that.
it's more than enough that God makes the sun rise every single day.
it's more than enough that i am alive and He loves me.
i have nothing to complain about.

1 comment:

Robert Summers said...

Welcome to the Blog Band Wagon. :-)

That's some good stuff! It's so hard to keep a sense of perspective over our lives and so easy to fall into the trap of believing we're not as lucky and blessed as we really are. Thank God you can see that and have some friends around you that will keep it in focus. Keep up the blogging!!