it's only going to get better

we're only going to get crazier.
i'm only going to jump higher and dance more and smile bigger and sing louder and laugh harder and live...more.
but that's not the case for everyone.

lately in the services at Elevation, i notice people getting comfortable. people who used to get really loud and pumped about church sitting and being complacent with just showing up. people who used to get so on fire and excited for what God could do in their lives not seeming excited anymore.

so me and jeremy were talking about this today. how we go in and jump and dance and go crazy (with rob, too) while everyone else turns around and stares at us. we yell and scream and shout 'amen' because we honestly believe in the Gospel that is being preached and the words in the songs that we're singing. we believe that God is moving in us and in Elevation like He's never moved before (at least, not in my life so far). we believe it enough to become undignified. i love it. i love getting looks like we're retarded. because i'm on fire for God and i love to show Him and sometimes singing and dancing like an idiot is the best way i know how. it just so happens that i have 2 phenomenal friends who will let me stand between them to do it.

[i don't understand how you can go to church and NOT get excited about God. and i love that my excitement is finally stable. in that i have it, no matter where i am. because last year i really couldn't say that. Elevation got me pumped, but other churches did not. but now i realize that it's God that gets me pumped, not this place (even though it is super amazing).]

and i just realized this. i think the reason i'm getting more and more excited about worship is because i'm working with kids more. kids have freedom to do whatever they want. granted, some kids in Motion are just not excited about who God is. but they're young and i'm confident that they'll pick it up :] anyways, they can dance and jump and scream without shame. leading worship for Motion is one of my favorite things to do and i've only done it twice. and the more i babysit and the more i get to sing and dance and play with kids, the less i care about what other adults think of me. and i think i love worshiping with rob and jeremy specifically so much because their personalities in worship are a lot like mine.
basically completely undignified.

it's awesome.
and you should try it.

[I am gonna show you what I mean
I am gonna Love like you've never seen
you are gonna live like you used to dream
this is your new song.
don't get comfortable]